The things you forgot about

God.

Pardon me. Quite hypocritical of me to write that post then lose it hours later telling the world to screw itself.

There's been alot of bad news i've been getting lately and last night would be what you call the icing on the cake. It's been months since i've shed a tear and regretfully i broke that yesterday night. Very stupid.

Plus now i cant even sleep. Im not exaggerating. I had an extra early day today and instead of getting a good 8/7 hours of sleep i ended up only getting 4. And i mean, rather than worrying someone who actually cares about you, like your mom, you fake a smile just to avoid an unnecessary conversation.

I know. Nobody is going to come asking me and start giving a shit and all. I dont even know why im writing this here. It's just you guys are my friends and i guess.... i just want you to know.

It's times like these i miss you people so much. Who else can crack such stupid irrational nonsensical jokes and do the craziest things to divert my attention even for just a few seconds? And then who else can make me happy by just playing some extra old school 90's music in his car?

Hopefully tomorrow's dinner will change things. At least temporarily stop all these bad things i've been thinking. Already started freaking 3rd term and tomorrow i have sketching class that i will beat and thrash because you know i can.

Because... what other way to exude some unstable volatile and unfringed anger in a productive way than getting 90+ in a class.


S.